Promises denied

"Cry Me A river"
I heard your voice in backyard commanded to.
Tell me you weren´t there. i felt a cocksucker because I know, as always, i´ll turn back to call you and hear your sweet voice that clams me.. that maybe tomorrow you could call me back other day.
I try to say myself maybe my world be happier without you and your world doesn´t have place to me...
That´s just why we´re dizzy enough not to remember what we´ve been doing.
How does it feel now you´re on your own and there is no one else to take care of you?
Tell me why has it to be like this?
And why did you leave me a message "asked me for do not disapear"?
By Denilson

Promises denied

"Promises denied"
Keep me a promise that you will love as the last thing you could do in your life.
Promise me that you won´t defense yourself from what you want and desire.
Promise me that you will back to write about what you´re thinking on and about people around you.

I´ll do but only if you promise me that you´ll see a doctor and take somed meds.
Only if you promise that will not be shy and say what you really don´t want.
If you promise me that will help the poor and sick people rock their world and won´t deny a throw hand up to you... Even if it would belong to your worst enemy.

You have to promise me that you will not stop to say your anedoctes and play a clown everytime people feeldown.

i´ve held you up like my angel who always save me from the dark but now I know that you will gonna die without any sign of dust you left...
if i was so wiser beyond your hands clean of this... But only if you promise me that you´lll forgive those who hurt you in past!
By Denilson

Rise up again

"Rise up again"
How far you advance will depende of your self good will i´m also not sure what we can expect from the future we must make important decisions every step we take everytime we are in doubt or denial about something.
The inner voice in me always tries to message me
But the message does not seem to be getting through. Then the reality is being out of control, starts be inconsistent without any real purpose instead when it appears without we want to realize...
i just think in how we would be happy without having to do what they want us todo for their own sake?
i wanna be proud about being useless to someone iwanna not be another brinck in the wall I know now I ain´t not part of it.. Grounded, they talk but don´t do they command but not make anything new. they insist but don´t car about. they but but it doesn´t cost a thing.
they think it´s done but don´t have idea.
they sell all poison but they know their stuffs aren´t good.
They don´t have energy to buy a stamp in the store and send you a letter but they have all money in the world and waste it like changing clothes so fast1
i´m trying to write of rejections, prejudices and stuffs like that!
But they don´t know what they really mean to me.
All i wann say is be quiet and drive throughout it all I wanna do is make my own life count on it.
who will ignore those in sheep coats who pretend to be brothers. Programmed creations let the unemployees steal mankind dignity.
they test all the stuffs of machines to substitue family´s fathers of their reap to feed their offspring, I don´t know how to solve this dillema it´s just about to get my poems and burn them and erase them from the earth´s surface all the lame work i´ve been writing since my rise from the darkness to this dark half state of mind...
By Denilson

Warm up without being burned

"Warm up without being burned"
A tipically chaotic Sunday. hot as microwaves
The day before were hot too but tipically tropical as today has begun.
But you know what expect but how to really know about this chaos.
Knowing it is one thing solving is another. i believe teh goal is to win every game. We need to develop a oneness of thoughts and action, to find the space where together we can become more receptive to the spiritual growth that is required this time And it can be extremelly difficult.
There would be emotional statements made that i wouldn´t want to repeat, the cruelty more malicious than i could imagine.
The positive point is to eliminate the negative KARMA, make changes in our lives. We must feel the natural environment outside the walls we made, to feel more tahn our own presence.
(breath, center themselves, to shut their minds down, allow any external sounds) A door slamming, a voice in the hallway echoing, a phone ringing, etc.
Pass without identify them.
Would you achieve peace, a oneness of thought? would you be able to let go, to open your consciousness to a new level of trust?
Probably not!
But they have to learn to be centered when everything around us moves too fast..
Now a rain is faling it´s Sunday afternoon the smell of wet sand filling my nose. Also i need to go into this space for myself as much as for anyone else, to put me in touch again with the spiritual mode of a war game.
By Denilson